Monday, November 9, 2009

Injectible cycle #3. Oh joy.

Oh day 3, here you are again. How I missed you. How I have been counting down until I can give my arm to the phlebotomist every 3 days, shoot myself up with hormones, and try to bring back a modicum of hope for a happy result.

I'm really trying to find some hope here. Anyone have any that I can borrow?

I'm just having a hard time getting going. I've already cried three times today. I cried on the way to work. I cried on the way to the doctor's office. I cried in Target as I was picking out a baby present for a shower that I get to go to tomorrow.

It's funny. (or not) I'm going through the signs of depression, and well, I'm pretty much there.

Anyone know an infertility therapist in the mid.west? If you are anywhere close, I'd be thrilled to email back and forth to figure out a location.

Ok, on a lighter note. My vacation was wonderful. If I could've stayed by the ocean for a few more weeks, I would've. Beautiful. Wonderful to see good friends and relax and just relax. And relax. I'm going to say that five more times.

Did I mention that my mother in law suggested that we adopt? Goodness, I LOVE that woman.

Ok, I'm off to try and build some endorphins at the gym.

8 comments:

Jessica said...

I live in St. Louis and am trying to find an infertility therapist also..let me know if you have any luck!!

And baby makes five... said...

I am in the Chicago suburbs and trying to find a grief post-miscarriage/IF therapist has been a colossal JOKE.

Sending you hope always, honey. We've hit a big snag in our adoption plans and I'm a little down in the mouth on it, but hope is always heading your way...

And hey, third time's the charm, right?! :)

xo

Lucky Jones said...

Sorry to hear you are having a tough time :( You will get through this! You should ask your RE for a therapist referral, I had one on hand in case I felt like I needed it...

And aren't MILs THE BESTEST?! They really know what to say... sheesh...

callmemama said...

Ugh @ your MIL's comment...

I hope you're able to find a therapist!

addingtothepack said...

I 2nd the suggestion to ask your RE for a therapist recommendation. I've been dealing with depression creeping in recently as well. I feel like a bunch of bloggers are confronting it right now (or maybe I am just extra-sensitive to noticing those who are). Hang in there and take care of yourself. :)

A said...

I am praying that God might bless this cycle with a baby for you!! I have lots of hope, so you can borrow some ;-)

Jane said...

I am trying to stop getting my hopes up for any particular cycle, but instead stay hopeful for the long term outcome. This has given me some peace.

Lin said...

So sorry to hear about the depression. We know all too well about that at our house...and it's tough on everyone. Thinking of you...FX for this cycle!